Sunday, April 14, 2013

The ground under your feet

Life has an unique way of pulling the ground from under your feet when your least expect it. It leaves you feeling expendable. And when the sense of being expendable comes in a relationship with either the spouse or parents, it feels like the world is crashing down. Maintaining your sanity becomes a battle unknowingly. 

A fear and a lack of security keeps us from sleeping. Do lay down is to invite demons - the thought demons. Burning out, racing from room to room, folding clothes .. anything is acceptable when compared to having to lie down.Lying down friendless and feeling unwanted reminds you all over again just how expendable you are to the people in your life at this moment. 

Sitting alone invites the thought demons to share your space. Sitting with others is a temporary relief from the depressing company of the thought demons. The thought demons have a way of making your worst nightmares appear to come alive. 

When you feel the ground being pulled from under your feet, there is the weird feeling of falling from the precipice into an unknown abyss. No not exactly .... it is more like feeling like the ground is slipping from under your feet only to rotate a 90 degree and knock you on your head

9 comments:

Eon Heath said...

Da Dee...

after a loooong time!!! enaache da??

hmm, true what you say...the thought demons haunt you to the edge of your sanity....loneliness does the waltz of melancholy...

take care...

Arun PIllai said...

Bingo, routing back here after a decade. Hope sky is still blue out there ;-)

abhilash Jayadev said...

In fact by mistake got in your blog, ur ozzome yaar

Renu said...

feeling of being unwanted is very depressing, but now i have taken a stand that if I want to live happily, I have to be independent of other's opinion, I am wanted by myself.

Abhishek Upadhyay said...

I have faced this many times.
The only way to get out of this is to make list of people/relatives/friends whom you have not talked for long time and then start talking to them.

P. Venugopal said...

good morning deeps! venu mash here, after a long time. hope you have got over whatever it was and the ground is back under your feet!!!

White Magpie said...

Fear - trying to handle a situation which is not YET. Long time. Hope all is well.

~*. D E E P A .* ~ said...

@ Eon,
Hellooooo ... lonnnnnnnnnnng time ... how are you ??
Been asking sround for news abt u.

@ Arun,
The sky is blue and pink these days !

@ Abhilash,
Thank you, and welcome !

@ Renu,
Hello ... Welcome !
Way to go lady ... That's the attitude ...

@ Abhilash,
Yes ,... but during such times, you dont feel like talking either !

@ Venu mash,
Hello mashe ... how have you been ?
It's been ages since I heard from you ...

@ White Magpie,
Yo boss !
As usual, you hit the nail on the head !

~*. D E E P A .* ~ said...

@ WM, Why is your profile disabled ???